Then I came to the question: “Is there any need for me to ask questions?” If water when not stirred becomes still, surely if I can accept exactly where I am, where my mind is, then if I do not alter with ‘Is this right, Is this wrong?’ then my mind will actually settle.”
This has been a profound insight. I feel now that my thoughts and emotions are neither ‘bad’ nor ‘good’—just as a river, which can feed or destroy crops when in flood, is neither bad nor good; it just is.
Thanks hugely to the power of the teachings, I feel more now that I am a ‘human being’ rather than a ‘human doing’.
I have always found the word retreat strange, that somehow life was ‘attacking’ us and that we had to run away from it. This retreat has been a re-treat, a gift to myself and so much more. I hadn’t expected to also be a gift to everyone I meet from now on, a wave of compassion that will ripple off and affect everyone. A deep feeling of love from Rinpoche and the other teachers is now embedded in me and I am certain, thanks to them and to the What Meditation Really Is course, that I will carry this love with me and add my own to pass on to the world.
So, a deep and heartfelt thanks. When I was asked at the start of the course to set my intention, I did not know what I wanted and so I thought there was something wrong with me. I realize now that my mind was not tamed. Now I have had a taste of the beauty, ordinariness and simplicity of ‘tame this mind of ours’: a universal truth so obvious, which is why it resonates with us all on such a fundamental level.
So my intention now, as I hadn’t realized had always been, is to tame this mind of mine. Thank you Rinpoche and teachers for helping me take my first steps along this path.